i been numb, depressed for last few days…and i don’t know how long its gona stay like this.
im spending more, eating unnessarily.
i feel unfocused.
how it all started…
my good close female friend passed away, suddenly at her home.she was such a gem, down to earth , funny, jolly person. i was thinking about her when i read this sad news. i was in shock, big time! it was hard for me to believe. she was really dear to me..such persons hardly come around..
today , my collegue’s dad passed away..death is a reminder to us all.
everytime i attend a funeral.it leads me to new doors to think.
it was a reminder how im gona bury my father when the time will come.
now, i’ve lost my respect for my parents. i come home, numb, not intersted.
its terrible when the parents are not sincere with their children. and that bonding has faded away. and im worried that with which mindset im gona honor them, or bury them.
i feel dead inside, hopeless.
im losing focus everywhere. my work’s productivity has gone bad! i feel not interested in making money or getting new/more projects.
to live a life is to live with the right people and im not lucky enough esp at home.