you know what sucks…wait!
i want to move on..
trying my best…dont know why the delay .
its giving me headache, stress, anxiety .
what kind of trail im in…
my vision is clear , im so stucked and it sucks!
p.s. hammock songs are the only ones that give me peace n calm. makes me feel like back home where i grew up..where life had good vibes. …sighss
amongst us are the ghosts, good ghosts.
we don’t know them, yet we may feel or see them.
good ghosts are helping us.
its funny how one thing connects with another that u never imagined of.
I was watching Jersey Girl last night, there was one song and the vocals sounded familiar which lead me to a song i used to listen years back, astoundingly.
It was today is the day by Aimee Mann.
Isn’t it strange how time is connected with past and future!
Its like time is circulating around us for a purpose.
Its like.. to see our past, we’ve to go thru our future.
think about it.
17th Dec – Sat
Along with her sis, talked to both but got confused what to talk further. There were only 3 of us, it was kinda dark empty space/room.
What blew me up was she listening to NIN! I told her that their songs are about harsh, hate, curse and revenge.
Not clearly remember but I think I touched her face, hair…or maybe I was close to her or getting Closer. I can still visualise that memory, half of her face lighting up with my hand.
Wait a sec, is it a sequel of my previous dream…
in a rush, im losing my part of creativity which keeps me pumped, the energy.
whats the difference between being odd and even?
things going to end. but there has to be suffering. its like slow motion progress that is so tiring. what went missing, will be missed. what is going to miss, will not coming back.
facing the mirror tells me each and every minute is yours.
the satisfaction, powerlessness, the greatness.
truthfully, the eyes of the poetry diaries.
in a state of a new place, new country
either there are less problems here or there used to many problems which kept me busy.
OR I miss my family members.
i need to indulge my self more, keep myself busy
feel like i have become slow , lazy ..sorta stuck
current members starting to disgust me unfortunately
there are pros and cons of both sides, living different places
meet and greet people might be solution to feel better.